I made this drawing after a twitter discussion about how much I love dragons but I totally forgot Smaug. Anyway here is my version of him. It is a charcoal drawing which is my first and a damn-side harder than I thought it would be!
Last night I was bombarded with a whole host of weird dreams. They weren’t nightmares, per say. Nor were they those surreal-what-the-hell-is-happening, am-I-going-to-die type dreams. They were unsettling and strange. And they woke me up – several times.
The first one I don’t even remember now but it woke me up enough to make me have to pee (which is the worst part of waking up in the middle of the night). So several minutes later with a bruised knee and at least three stubbed toes I crawled back into bed. For me, there is no such thing as going straight back to sleep. I have a whole ritual before sleep is considered. I must have a few sips of water from my bottle – and if I wake up several times at night and have a few sips of water each time, I wind up having to refill the bottle. And that means more bruised knees and stubbed toes, and perhaps even a broken elbow. After the water ritual I have the lip balm ritual. That involves fumbling in the dark for said lip balm, eventually pushing it on the floor, then having to get up and fumble on the floor in the dark for it. And as anyone who has fumbled on the floor in the dark at night will know, that is the time for the icky things to make their appearance. When I at last have found my lip balm and adequately lip balmed the lower half of my face, if nothing else has gone awry, I can settle down back to sleep – and that could take anything from two minutes to thirty, depending on my tiredness level. The more tired I am, the harder it is to go back to sleep.
This getting back to sleep bit is, of course, made that much harder when I have weird, strange or scary dreams. Needless to say, it probably took a good half hour to get back to sleep after that one last night. Then, of course, came the next one. This dream was hardly scary but did leave me with a knot in my stomach. I was in an odd house that was more like an office block with lots of rooms which all had very large windows. It was night and I was checking the windows before going to bed but every room I entered had large open windows, you know the ones you struggle to reach to close them. I would eventually close it and move on to the next room. Nothing too unusual, right? The thing that got my pulse up was when I finally finished checking all the windows, I went back to the first room and the window was open again. Grrrr.
Well, after calling out silently a few times (as you do in dreams), I woke up – with a headache from hell. It was so bad, it was threatening to turn into a full-blown migraine. All I could do was lie motionless, staring up at the dark ceiling, wondering why I haven’t bought those stronger pain killers yet. When I finally regained enough control of my body to be able to reach over to the drawer and remove two painkillers, my brain also jumped into action and I realised that the dream could have possibly been trying to tell me something. You know, like break open my fucking skull, I am dying in here (symbolic opening of windows). Or maybe I was just having a stupid dream. Who knows.
So, after the going back to sleep ritual was performed for the second time in one night, and thankfully the painkillers set in, I went back to sleep (or more appropriately, passed out). This time I had the hearing-footsteps-down-the-passage-and-into-my-room dream. Yeah, that was fun. Third time awake. Third going back to sleep ritual.
I am pleased to say that I slept through the rest of the night (despite having more odd dreams, but don’t ask what those were about) – and half the morning but I feel great now! I have also since figured out that my headache from hell was probably a result of the two days of severe allergies I have had (apparently very high pollen and pollution levels – thanks a lot atmosphere).
So do you have weird and wonderful (or not) dreams? Let me know all about them in the comments below!
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I drew this earlier on my graphics tablet. I’m so mad because I have no idea how to choose canvas sizes on some of these programs so this one came out really small and when it’s enlarged (as it is now), it’s no longer clear. I thought I did really well with this one too and was hoping to brag. Anyway, hope you can see it well enough :)
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It’s nearly Easter, look out for those bunnies! Have a happy and blessed Easter.
What do you think of my bandit?
I struggled so much with that bloody arm and hand that I actually felt like chopping it off! So I know it looks a bit strange but that’s too bad :) Also I thought the eyes are maybe a bit close together. I’m learning though. :) It’s a sloooowwwwww process!
If you’re wondering, it comes from a photo but I had to improvise some of it. Oh, and I’m not saying of whom so don’t ask :p
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I did this landscape drawing on my graphics tablet. Yes, it’s dark. Yes, that is how I felt this morning. It’s not by any means amazing but I think it turned out okay :) I wrote a poem last night (something that was triggered by the story I am writing so not my own emotions – well maybe a tiny bit if I consider how I have been feeling over the last couple of months ) and thought it would go rather well with the drawing. You can check that out on my other blog, 1000 words or at Poet’s Corner. Oh, and you will notice the drawing as background to the poem is darker. The reason is that the white words weren’t showing as this original background was not dark enough :)
So, I should have been writing this morning but I think I may have overtaxed myself yesterday and so the moment I started, I screeched to a halt. As anyone who has read my past posts would know, I draw to relax. I usually draw if I’m stressed or tired or, as in this case, cannot get ink to paper. Once a drawing is completed, I can go back to being myself. So, that’s what I did. I think I’m starting to get better with portraits. I still find noses extremely difficult. I think I did this one about seven times! I have already posted these to both Twitter accounts and Instagram. You can head on over to Instagram, if you so desire, to give me a <3 my Instagram name is @kpayze . Let me know what you think in the comments below!
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So, I have been going through my old writings, those bits of scrap paper and half – filled books with random ramblings on them. If you’re a writer, you’ll know what I am referring to. I thought I would post some on my writing blog so I started with Packing Boxes, which I wrote about two or three years ago – only because that is actually a completed story (I’m so lazy :) ). I didn’t make any corrections or alterations. I just posted it. A fellow blogger friend’s comment made me realise that I probably should have checked the story before posting. Now, I’m really bad at editing and rewriting my own work but I am doing my best with the novel I’m currently writing.
Then I had an idea. I can post the original stories then do editing and a rewrite, if necessary, and post the altered stories. I’ll do it once a week – I don’t think I can handle any more editing and rewriting than that ;) I’ll start with Packing Boxes. I think it will be good to fix my lackadaisical attitude to editing. And hopefully, in the long run, will do me good when it comes to second and third drafts of my book (which are a loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong way off considering I’m only about a quarter of a way through writing the story!)
Looking at the pile of paper, I think what I find more daunting than edits and rewrites is actually trying to decipher what I have written. I do have more ramblings on the computer but couldn’t fit them into the photo ;)
Anyway, look out for these writings and edits on 1000 words and wish me luck. I think I am going to need it!
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This is a quick post to let everyone know I have posted a short story on my other blog (1000 words) called Into the tale which you can view by clicking the link.
Have you ever read a book where the characters jump out of the page and your world is transformed as you travel through each scene?
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